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Having been inspired to sign up for a series of three healings through John Seibert, I did so about a year ago. During the first two healings I felt healing energy flowing and I knew it was very good. The third healing was one of the most powerful, defining moments of my life. The positive changes continue even now.
During the 3 rd healing, a mysterious, extremely loud, gunshot-like, bang happened in the home. Only John and I were there. I felt it so extreme in my stomach area that I thought I had pulled muscles in my back. It was not a big deal for John, and the healing continued.
That night in a dream I witnessed a corpulent black woman being shot in the stomach by a racist, white policeman. That shot killed her, but he shot her again in the forehead just for fun. At the moment of death, I felt profound sadness for the unnecessary hate and resulting tragedy.
Later it was confirmed by Derek that I was that black woman in a former life. It makes sense to me. From the time I was a teenager, I felt that I should have been born black and would travel long distances to hear black gospel music. I even told people that I wanted to be a "fat, black gospel singer" when I grew up! Strange for a blond, blue-eyed northerner raised in a "white" city.
The life-long, chronic anxiety and fear I was carrying, evidently from the trauma, is basically gone. Soon after the healing I stopped taking the high-dosage Zoloft as it was no longer needed. Even as a baby, I was very fearful and anxious, and exhibited symptoms. For years I sought various therapies. Nothing helped - from hypnosis to psychiatry. The symptoms included constant shaking, dizziness, tightness in the chest and weird, frightful thoughts.
It also occurred to me that one of the reasons I incarnated was to learn & teach tolerance. Well, as most healing stories go, this is also a never-ending story, and I am ever grateful for the never-ending, ever-expanding prema love.
- mjk
Los Angeles
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